Thanks to all of you for the input- I have a much clearer idea now of the options I can follow. The officers knew it was purely financial, and how upset I was that I had to drop. I guess to clarify, in that week I had a family member be diagnosed with a serious illness, and we found out she couldn't pay her own medical bills and would need a lot of treatment, so my parents decided to help take on that burden and I offered the funds that my parents had put aside tentatively for my dues to help out (that was only a tiny fraction, but I felt like I needed to give something up like the rest of my family). I was still going to join and just figure something out in order to pay. Then my dad lost his job and my parents sort of panicked, and I knew they were looking at this as something extra and it was stressing them out hugely, plus we didn't know when he would be able to find a new job, so I just told them to forget about it so it was one less thing for them to be concerned over. It was just a bad confluence of circumstances. Luckily my dad found a job within the next month, and well paying one, so everything is stable again, but my family is VERY fiscally conservative and it was simply the right thing to do at the time. I will talk to the execs about my choices, just so I know, but I really appreciate y'all's comments. I don't know much about Panhellenic guidelines, so I am glad to know what's appropriate and at least sort of what to expect. I'm going to assume it won't work out but give it a shot regardless, and trust that whatever happens is what was meant to be
. I will likely re-rush again next year if I don't work out anything with the execs, or if that is what they suggest.