Hi Wishful,
I just wanted to let you know I have been in your EXACT same situation before. I was released my first time going through recruitment and I went through again and found my home. I was cut very heavily during my second, but two sororities wanted me back the whole entire time. Please read my story to help you stay positive and I have some advice on this thread as well:
http://www.greekchat.com/gcforums/sh...d.php?t=122133