[WhatToDoNow]

I go to a school where the Greek community dominates. This is the SEC. well I met this guy who was really cool and part of a fraternity (F1 for names sake) invited me to some summer events and after a few weeks, durring a large summer party they took me to the brother room and I revived an early bid. I was drunk. And at this point I hadn't spoken with my other fraternities so I requested to "hold" the bid instead of accepting or denying. Keep in mind about ten actives were standing around me and they were all pretty dissapointed with my responce and I could tell and I just blurted out "just messing with y'all, I accept".

Okay so this is when my research began. after I accepted a bid (I know that is stupid) but this was all kind of sudden. I found out that this fraternity blows. like if you say the letters people laugh out loud.

a week went by and I ended up at a top fraternity on campus for a party. we will call this F2. somehow I ended up at waffle house with several actives later on and was invited to go fishing ect. well turns out I get a bid from them a week later. we really hit it off and I was so excited to have the opportunity.

Keep in mind that F1's social events and reputation compared to F2's social events and reputation is like comparing night and day. I don't even go to F1 events anymore, call them, anything. it's only been a week since I've stopped going there. I don't want to pledge F1. but I accepted their bid prematurely because I felt pressured and didn't understand the process. I haven't told F2 about the situation and I haven't told F1 about my bid from F2.

I've been thinking about getting a 30 rack and taking it to F1's recruitment chair and saying sorry I drank the rush beer, I have decided to decline your bid. I just feel bad. but I know where I want to pledge and isn't what makes me happy more important?

my question is. have I done something really wrong by accepting the second bid? and if I just walk away from F1 will that cause some kind of legal issues because I accepted their bid then just left and went somewhere else?

sorry it's long I'm just really confused. I don't want to wait a year to pledge because of this stupid drunk mistake. I'm already really close to my F2 pledge brothers and doing stuff with them at F2 and I really don't want to be denied pledgship because my "recruitment has been ended" by de-pledging F1 or whatever technical shit storm I've created.

I need advice and any technical information you can give about my situation.
I just wish I never even would have went to F1.