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This morning was spent staring anxiously at my phone, waiting for the call saying I had been dropped from recruitment. Thankfully, it never came. I headed down to sorority row to meet my Rho Chi and get my schedule. I was excited because I thought I had had good conversations at most of parties and hopefully made a good impression on the sororities. Although I was praying for a schedule with 6 parties, I was grateful to still be in the running at all. It seemed like there had been a LOT of girls who were either dropped from recruitment or dropped out. Our Rho Chi group seemed to be shrinking.

Finally my Rho Chi handing me my schedule, and I opened it eagerly:

Millionaire Matchmaker

Wow. I only had one party left. All of the other chapters dropped me. At first I was shocked and hurt. I had been feeling good about myself after the last round, but this just came as a blow to me. I felt worthless and bad about myself. I wished I looked a different way, I wished I was better at making friends, I wished I hadn't even come here at all. I know I should not have felt this way over a sorority, but when you put your heart and soul (not to mention countless hours obtaining recommendation letter and shopping for new outfits) into something and do nothing but eat, breathe, and sleep it for a week, rejection really hurts.

Thankfully, I didn't have a party today, so I had time to go back to my dorm and recuperate. After much thinking, praying, and talking on the phone to my mom, I realized that the sororities who dropped me were missing out, and that I still had one that wanted me. I LOVED the one sorority that still wanted me. I realized so many girls only had houses they didn't like left or had none at all! I was blessed. I was nervous, but also excited for the party tomorrow.