[ElizaB]

I decided to give the colony a real shot. The extension team was really fun to talk with and I enjoyed all of my interviews with them.

I was invited to their philanthropy dinner, where actives from a nearby university came to meet us. I actually knew a handful of girls from the visiting chapter and it was great to see them. It was kind of comforting, actually. I still don't know why.. but it was.

I was then invited to attend the pref ceremony, guided by the extension team and another visiting chapter. It was a very pleasant experience, and I liked the visiting actives and extension team very much. But it didn't feel right to me. I did not find a sense of friendship or openness with the other PNMs. I finished the evening and asked to talk with one of the extension team members about it. She encouraged me to stay with this because of my leadership capabilities and presence on campus/ in university activities.

I gave the situation a lot of thought, called my mom (of course!), but ultimately decided to withdraw. Sisterhood was a component of greek life that I valued greatly, and I did not feel any bonds with the PNMs alongside of me. Yes, I loved the extension team and the actives from other schools and felt ties to them, but I didn't feel it with the girls on my own campus. It didn't feel like the experience I wanted.