I understand how you feel. Just remember that your new sisters asked you to pledge their sorority because they saw in you something that told them you would respect, enjoy, and up-hold their organization. So share your creativity and new energy with every event, meeting, and brain-storming-for-fund-raisers-session that your organization has.
Be there for your sisters no matter what. Stand by them as you would want them to stand by you. Make the extra effort to show them that when they graduate you will still be upholding the sorority letters.
As an alumni I am always so happy to see new sisters jumping to run for positions, voluneering for events, coming up with creative ideas to get our sorority name out, etc.
Have a great year! I'm sure you're going to make a wonderful sister!
NYUgirl
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