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Here's an update...
We got to talking last night and I told him I deserved someone who loves me and is willing to be with me. I told him I deserved to be happy. He asked if I thought he could make me happy. I told him that I knew he could, but he had to be willing to try. He said he wasn't ready to commit to anything right now. He thinks that if we get back together, we'll get stuck in the rut we were in before we broke up and start fighting again. We've been hanging out for a month now and it's like we are getting to know each other all over again. We've been getting along great and things between us have never been better. I told him I didn't want to pressure him to make any decisions. I just wanted him to know how I felt and couldn't hold it in anymore. He said he liked how things were going and we're really getting along and we're happy. I said I liked it too and things didn't have to change when and if we get back together. He said we should just keep doing what we're doing and we'll play it by ear and see what happens. He told me to be patient. I told him I learned that I don't need flowers, letters, or to talk about marriage, I just needed him. I told him that I love him and asked if he still loves me. He said he wasn't willing to say that yet, but then he said, "You know I do." He's told my best friend and all of his friends he loves me. I'm the only person he hasn't told.
I told him I didn't want to look stupid if he meets someone else and I get thrown to the side. He said that won't happen, and though he talks to other girls, he won't have sex with them or hook up. I asked how he would feel if I met another guy and dated him. He said, "If that's what you feel you have to do, but I'll kick his ass." What is that???? He told me not to worry, because he's not dating anyone. I asked if he was dating me, and he said we're "seeing each other". We have plans to see each other tomorrow night and Saturday. He also asked what the plans were for my birthday next Tuesday and 4th of July. So, we're dating I guess. But what is holding him back? Since when is love not enough?
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