It's hard to tell you what to do without knowing the makeup or size of your chapter. To say "reach out to your sisters" is vastly different when you're talking about a chapter of 40 and a chapter of 240. Not to mention the social norms/makeup/etc etc of your campus in general.
Don't be mad at your big. She may be pulling away because she doesn't know how to handle it or how to help you. This is a basic self-preservation instinct, and also it's very normal to feel frustrated when you see someone hurting and don't know what you can do (if anything).
All I can say is, bring these questions to your counselor and ask them for advice. And be COMPLETELY honest with them. If you cut yourself 20 times in a week, don't lie and say it was 5. They are un-shock-proof and they don't judge. That's their job.
I would hold off on talking to anyone in the sorority who doesn't know until you speak with your counselor. Have you gotten your grades yet?
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