[33girl]

You sound like you are scared to death of going to a huge school like Mizzou and you want us to tell you to forget it so you don't have to try and fail. We're not going to do that.

The "people" who are telling you you aren't the sorority type (or that you're not the big college type, or that you're too reserved, or any other box they want to put you into) are closed minded jerks who do not have your best interests at heart. The next time they say something like that to you, laugh in their face and say "it's really funny that you think that...I think I'd be great at [insert thing that they are telling you you can't do]."

Contact your alum panhel ASAP and also every teacher you have ever had (including the male ones - they may have met their wives at a fraternity/sorority mixer!). You CAN get recs on your own.