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Party Time!
STARGAZER was up first and I was SUPER excited! I just KNEW I had to be a STARGAZER but wasn't sure how to let them know that. My rush counselor had scared me to death about saying too much or saying the wrong thing. And, since I didn't have any clue about this Greek stuff, I was clueless! So, I went in and hoped for the best.
I again had "that feeling" that this house is where I'm supposed to be. A girl picked me up at the door and talked to me - and we had tons of things in common - shocking, I know... HA! Didn't learn until WAY later that they match you up with girls you have things in common with...and that if they like you then you get to sit in the front.
Anyway, this girl asked me if I had any questions for her and I really didn't, but I asked her how she knew she wanted to be a STARGAZER just because I felt like I needed to say SOMETHING. She gave a super sweet explanation and I was further convinced that this is where I should be. She then asked me if I knew what I was going to do or if I was just confused, to which I said I was confused (becasue my counselor had scared me to death about saying the wrong thing!).
The party continued and they sang some super sweet songs that brought tears to my eyes and I just KNEW I had to be here!! So, as I was leaving, the girl who'd walked me in came back over and walked along side me to ask if I was still confused... I was in a brief panic, because I wanted her to know that I wanted STARGAZER but was afraid to say too much. So, when she asked if I was still confused, I just shot her a big toothy smile and shook my head "no" - and as I walked out the door I had a shot of fear run through me... Had she understood me and realized that I was telling her I wanted STARGAZER? Oh, well - too late now...it's off to HYDRANGEA's party for me...
HYDRANGEA - as soon as I walked in, I knew that although this was a super nice house and they'd been nothing but kind to me, that I belonged elsewhere. 2 girls who'd talked to me during the week came back over and spoke to me, telling me how happy they were that I'd chosen to return to them for pref. I smiled and nodded a lot, but don't remember saying much. I was still thinking about STARGAZER and wondering if I'd done enough to let them know how I felt.
I'm pretty sure that HYDRANGEA thought I'd been to CARNATION before them because of my roomie, so I don't think they knew where else I'd been.
They did a beautiful ceremony and gave me something to throw into a fountain and make a 'wish' upon for the next day...and although I felt a little wrong for doing it in their house during such a lovely ceremony, I tossed my item into the fountain and wished *prayed* that I would not return there tomorrow. Then we left.
STARGAZER is my choice. NO question. I filled out my card and triple checked it to make sure I did it right. Then, I also listed HYDRANGEA as my #2 choice so I could "play the game right" like my rush counselor had talked about all week. But, I was still praying that God would finish what He'd started when he took CARNATION off my list that morning.
Now, nothing left to do but wait.
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