Weight, something I struggle with everyday.
I have tried alot of stupid things in my life to lose the excess wieght. As a freshman in high school a friend and I used to think we were "cool" because we puked our food up after we ate. I gave up on that notion though. Puking definietly wasnt for me. It mostly just made me feel worse. My senior year of high school I was down to 170 pounds. Which was great for me. I have a large body frame and 170 pounds made me look really really good. I am not sure how I lost all that weight, maybe because my senior year was nothing but running around like a chicken with my head cut off. But I did lose it healthy. I still ate, I walked and did other types of exercise. I felt good. Then I came to college and the freshman 15 was gained. But it just wouldnt stop! I was getting huge. In my eyes I was anyways, but then I found a guy who loved me for all I was. He told me I was beautiful. Even though when we first met I weighed about 20 pounds less than I did at the point that we started dating. We have sense broke up and I now no longer blame my lack of boyfreind on my wegith, in fact my most recent ex weighs probably about 50 pounds less than me and he still thinks that I am beautiful too!
So it isnt the size that matters it is the person underneath the size. I strongly believe this. But I still feel that I need to lose weight. I would love to be backto the healthy 170 that I was when I graduated high school. I felt my best then. For being 5'8 that is still pretty heavy. So I am going to try my best to lose the weight that I seem to have found in college, but never be ashamed of hwat I am. I am a big girl and I will always be a big girl and that is something I have learned to accept. I just need to feel healthy again. I hope this post made sense! knowing me it didnt! haha.