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i never thought that the people on greek chat woul;d be more supportive than my own chapter. i am meeting with my standards tonight, and to be honest, i am now not only going to talk about whether i have to deactivate, rather if maybe i want to. i am so completely alone. i am sitting here, alone in a computer lab, typing to a bunch of people i don't know....why? well, because i really have no other option. i haven't hurt any of you, so i feel that it's ok for me to talk to you. i haven't lied to you, so it's not like i've tricked you in any way. i have resorted to looking up suicide hotlines on the internet...because i don't know what else to do. yesterday, after i read all of your posts, i drafted an email to my chapter....telling them what was going on and quoting some of you. i was going to ask them what they thought, and tell them i am sorry that i didn't trust them enough to trust them. but now i am beyond that. i really don't know what to do. thank goodness for all you. thank you
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