[NiaX]

Dear Me,

I love you. Each day you show more and more of why you have a purpose in this life. I understand that your bday was not all gravy, and you basically felt the walls cave in a whole week afterwards. Do NOT give up. Yes, you aren't looking at the land of milk and honey YET, but you see that there are lessons to be learned before you get there. You prayed on that day in 2008 that you wanted to become the woman God needs you to be, well your prayers are answered. You've got to get a grip on having faith! It isn't a feeling and it isn't something you know... its what you believe. So you have to stop relying on the knowledge you gain from books, experience, etc when it comes to living life. You can only trust God. He will bring you to the level you are supposed to be at, but you have to TRUST and OBEY Him. You have to stop asking questions about certain things (those out of your control... like really out of your control) and let Him have His way. Unemployment ended in Aug and you're still here... Thank God! Yes, Thank him! So, being scared and frustrated is cool but don't stay in that state... trust and obey God fully! God has a job lined up just for YOU. Be patient with God because He has been patient with you for a lot longer.

I love you more than words can express. LOL! I'm so corny with you!

Sincerely,

Me