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Hi everyone,
I am a little nervous about the whole concept of being sisters with a bunch of girls who I have never met before. I think I feel wierd about it just because I've put so much effort into this whole thing, and then people can just come out of nowhere and be considered on the same level as us or something. I'm worried about what it might do for the unity of our group, and I think I just have some personal ego issues going on. It would be hard for me to accept that I could (and most likely would) be replaced as president by someone who did absolutely nothing to bring AZS to our campus. But that's something I will deal with and get over, I care too much about all of this for something like that to stop me. I don't think that Alpha Psi is at all interested in AZS- we had a sortof agreement that members of NBO wouldn't express interest in Alpha Phi if they came to present (which I don't think they are doing), and they wouldn't express interest in AZD. But, you never know. I don't have a personal problem with them, and I trust that whoever AZD chooses to be sisters will be great people. This whole process just raises so many questions for NBO. All along, we've wanted to be different from other women, and now there's a potential of our dream not working out like we planned. What if AZD wants all of us and then a bunch of other girls who we don't feel like we mesh with at all? Do I just give up on what we've worked so hard for? That's going to be a tough decision. Or, what if something like half of NBO really likes AZD, and the other half doesn't at all? Do I decide to give up on this dream I've had for so long in the name of unity? It's complicated because NBO was formed specifically to go national- and if not everyone wants to be a part of that decision, I think it's going to cause some issues for us. But, I addressed all of these things in the last meeting we had, and I think we all have a good amount of stuff to think about and process before we actually have to make any big decisions. I'm really trying to keep reminding myself that things always work out the way they're supposed to. It's just going to be difficult to relinquish the control that we have had over who we choose to be with and what we do. But that higher assistance is just what we need and want in a lot of ways. I think I am stressing too much right now over basically nothing. More later if anything happens- I still can't get in touch with John Holloway's office! I need info from him before I can do anything else and it's driving me insane!
love, Corina
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