Can I also just add in reference to the comments that I "left her": That makes it sound like something I did selfishly. I COULDN'T stay (and believe me I wanted to). It was SUPER hard telling her I was leaving, we were both crying. I felt horrible. So yes, I did leave the university, but (like I told her) I'm always 100% there for her, even if I'm not there in person.
PS. I actually like the idea of a God-Big. I'm not sure if she physically needs a big anymore since she's not a new member, but I will ask
