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Pref Round!
We meet with our Rho Gam’s although now it feels like so many girls are gone. A lot of girls dropped yesterday and even more would do the same today. Our RG’s warned us that today might be the toughest day of cuts for us since Pref Round would be by far the most serious part of recruitment. Up to this point I had been having a fabulous recruitment, pretty much getting almost everything I want out of it…and then I saw my pref card:
1. Laura Bush
2. Jackie Kennedy
3. Michelle Obama
Oh my god? Where are Martha Washington and Hillary Clinton? How could this happen?? I cried in front of my Rho Gamma. She talked on one-on-one with me about the situation, and pointed out that I still had Jackie Kennedy, which had been my #1 all week long. Of course I was elated about that factor, but I really loved the other two houses that cut me. And what if something goes wrong during my rounds tonight and I blow it? On the plus side, I had a full schedule and the other two sororities were both houses that I had enjoyed throughout the week. So after a temporary time-out to fix my makeup, which I had slightly ruined with my tears, I walked over to the Laura Bush house in my little black dress and heels.
Laura Bush – Everyone was led in and it was much quieter than any round I had experienced before. I was paired with a girl I had talked to more than once throughout the week. I had always gotten along really well with her and was glad she was who I got to sit with. We sat down together and their ceremony was really touching and gave me goosebumps. Other girls were crying, but I didn’t. Honestly I think I was a little emotionally removed from the situation because of just having to come into this house after my little breakdown episode. Afterward, the girl asked me how my week had been and what I was feeling. I felt like I could just be completely honest with her, and since our Rho Gamma’s told us to tell the sororities how we were feeling, I didn’t hold back. I told her that I really had enjoyed my time at Laura Bush, but I didn’t think it was my home. I told her there was another house I had my heart set on but that I wouldn’t mind being in this house if it wasn’t meant to be (with the Jackie Kennedy’s). She then told me that she actually didn’t have Laura Bush as her #1 during rush, but since her pledgeship and time as an active, she has grown to love it more than anything, made great friends, and couldn’t imagine herself in the other house. This may seem a little blunt to tell a PNM, but I promise it came off as very genuine. The party was really nice and special, and I left knowing that I could be happy if I were to land in Laura Bush.
Jackie Kennedy – Going in I was SO nervous. After being cut from my #2 and #3, I felt like I had everything to lose. The other girls that were waiting to go inside with me were all beautiful and feeling the same way I was, I felt like I would love to be a part of this pledge class. I was brought in by my favorite girl all week, the Southern Belle! We talked about a lot of the same things that I had shared with the Laura Bush. I shared that I had loved Jackie Kennedy all week long, and had ranked them #1 every time. They were my absolute favorite and where I wanted to be more than anywhere else. She seemed so happy to hear me saying all this and practically squealed. Their ceremony was amazing and this time I couldn’t hold back the tears. What these girls were sharing was so special and moving. Their sisterhood seemed stronger than anywhere else I had felt the entire week. Conversation with the girl I was paired with was so natural, and I really hoped that if I became a Jackie Kennedy she would be my big. As were preparing to leave, she told me she really hoped to see me tomorrow, and I smiled back. I was practically floating on air once I left.
Michelle Obama – I was still on a Jackie Kennedy-high when I came to this house, so in a way I think I shut myself off mentally to wanting to like any other house. I hadn’t talked to the girl that brought me in, which I found a little strange. She seemed like she was trying to be very dear and genuine, but everything felt forced. I thought there ceremony was also really nice and other girls cried, but I never felt “the moment”. She asked me how I was feeling about rush overall and I told her pretty much what I told Laura Bush; that I enjoyed my time here but had my heart set on somewhere else. Even then, I had this strange feeling that I shouldn’t even be here. I knew deep down that I probably would’ve enjoyed preffing more with Nancy Reagan but because I was so caught up in the tent talk, I had cut them. It’s not necessarily that I saw myself as a Nancy Reagan, but I think even to this day, months later, they were a better choice for me personally. This house just wasn't right for me I felt like deep inside even though I'm sure it would be ag reat fit for others. I left Michelle Obama on a really uncertain tone.
After the rounds were over, we were led into our Rho Gamam groups where they stressed the importance of our decisions. We talked about suiciding and they strongly discouraged it. Other girls seemed really torn about their rankings, but I signed my card quickly and left.
1. Jackie Kennedy
2. Laura Bush
3. Michelle Obama
I didn’t really give any serious consideration to suiciding or leaving Michelle Obama off. I knew I wanted to be in a sorority, even if it wasn’t my first choice. I felt like I gave my best impression possible this week and now it was out of my hands.
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