Haha, sorry - the yellow is rather hard to read. I tried changing it to a slightly darker greenish color, hopefully that is a little better and won't get confused with a later sorority
Spring of my sophomore year, I started having doubts again. I had moved onto a new floor with a lot of freshman and was starting to make friends with them. I also had a roommate who was a transfer student who had been in a sorority at her old school. All of the freshmen girls who were rushing were concerned about hazing, and New Roommate convinced me that it WOULD happen. I got scared. I remember looking at the registration form for rush the night before it was due and thinking about it. I decided not to. I was doing alright, I was making friends anyway.
But all the girls who were rushing seemed to be having such a great time. I went shopping with them to get outfits, watched them leave for parties, cry when their favorites cut them, saw the posters outside their rooms after bid night. I sorely regretted my decision. I decided I was going to rush in the fall, as a junior, no matter what. Nothing was going to hold me back this time.
Shortly after recruitment had ended, I ran into a friend from
Lemon Meringue in a coffee shop on campus. She mentioned something about rush and I told her I was thinking about it in the fall. She told me that not a lot of sororities, if any, were doing fall rush, but they were doing some unofficial rush events right now (COB, although I didn't know the term for it at the time). She seemed really excited that I was interested, so I sat and talked with her and a few of the sisters. They seemed so different than the ones I had met the previous semester, very laid-back. I still wasn't sure if I would fit in, but my friend told me about how she had been very lonely before she joined
Lemon Meringue and it had changed her life. She invited me to another COB event they were having that week and I said I'd be there.
The next COB event was a lot of fun. I got to know a few more girls and really liked them. However, I felt myself saying awkward things and wondering if the girls were judging me for it. I felt insecure. But I really liked them and decided I would take a bid if they gave me one. I didn't want to have to wait till next spring and go through formal recruitment as a junior, so I knew that this might be my last chance to join a sorority. My friend told me this was their last event, but she was thinking of planning another and would let me know.
After a week or so, I hadn't heard from her, so I contacted her to ask if there would be another event. She said there wasn't and they had already finished handing out bids. My options were to rush whatever sororities were there in the fall, or wait a full year until spring. I hoped she was wrong and that there would be more chapters for fall recruitment. I didn't want to wait.