[aephi alum]

You got a bid to a chapter you weren't crazy about. You pledged, and made some effort to get to know the sisters and your pledge sisters. This is a good thing - many PNMs would have dropped out when they received disappointing pref invites.

But if you're getting close to initiation and you're still feeling uncomfortable, perhaps the best thing is to depledge. This is a decision only you can make, and the deadline is quickly approaching - once you're initiated into an NPC sorority you can never join another.

If you do depledge, you can always re-rush next fall, but the cards will be stacked against you:
- You will be a sophomore, with only 3 years instead of 4 to contribute as an active.
- Everyone will know that you got a bid the previous year and depledged. People are going to be thinking, "She depledged XYZ last year, what's to say she wouldn't depledge from our chapter this year if we gave her a bid?"
- You will have to attend at least one party at your current chapter. It'll be awkward at best.

So, when you make your decision whether to depledge, keep in mind that it may mean you will never go greek.

BTW, being obese won't keep you from being invited back / offered a bid. Being obese and trying to squeeze yourself into a size 2 dress, however, might.