[Alumiyum]

To be honest, I had few close friendships with sisters as an active, and I spent all 4 years on the fringe of the group for various reasons, some of my own making, but many not. My chapter would range from 35-60 members. But I still learned valuable lessons, developed social and communication skills, and of course, had fun. Would it have been nice to be friends with everyone? Yeah. But I am completely satisfied with the experience I had as an undergraduate.

I'm making assumptions here, but I'm willing to bet most of your pledge class is composed of freshman girls. You might only be a year older than they, but there is a difference between a sophomore and a freshman. To them, everything on campus is new and they're probably bonding over those experiences. Even if there are a few other upperclassmen, I'm willing to bet there aren't very many so there are fewer people to click with on a common experience level.

Find at least one active that you click with. Tell her how you feel. And then ask her if she or anyone she knows in the chapter has been in a similar situation. Remember that sorority membership is lifelong and these are three years out of the rest of your life. Enjoying your collegiate years is important, but those years are not the end of your membership. At a competitive campus, as a junior who dropped a sorority three weeks before initiation, you are extremely unlikely to get a bid again. You say you're realistic about your chances, but realize they are very, very slim. Are you miserable or just feeling left out? If you're feeling left out, you aren't alone. Some sisters will feel left out during their collegiate years. But you have so much more to look forward to.

Obviously this is a very personal decision that you have to make on your own, and it won't be easy. I think you should keep on trucking. You'll likely find pledge sisters and actives who feel like you do in time, and you'll have the rest of your life to find other ways to enjoy your membership. But if you choose not to stay, just be sure it's the right decision for you. Good luck...and don't let this get you too down.