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Saturday, I trudged back to campus in the snow to attend my party at Sandra Lee.
There were a lot of girls waiting outside the suite when I got there. When we went in, we sat in groups of a few PNMS and a few sisters at various places around the suite. Another PNM who I ended up sitting right next to had been my neighbor on my floor freshman year! This was her second time through recruitment of any kind. I honestly don’t remember much about the conversations here other than that. I didn’t dislike it here though.
Saturday night I got a phone call from home with some bad/upsetting news that would really impact my joining/pledging a sorority. It left me worried about time, stress, and financials. I considered dropping out right then, but I thought maybe, just maybe I could find a way to make it all work. And I didn’t want to drop out right in the middle of a “round” because I thought it would be rude. I didn’t want either of the chapters to think I wasn’t interested at all. So I went to my last party.
Sunday, was my party at Paula Deen. When we went in here, we were paired with one other girl and we made a big circle around the room. PNMs in chairs, actives on the floor. I talked to this one girl the whole time. The only thing I remember talking about a little bit was THON and the committee I was on for it at the time. This was in January & THON is in February, so all of campus was getting pretty excited! My conversation here was okay, but it just didn’t really feel right.
That night I sat in a chair in front of the Greek Life office for hours. I was contemplating dropping out again. The situation and more phone calls from home, were really on my mind. In the end, after 3 hours of sitting in front of the office, I decided I needed to drop out., but I was in tears. I thought this was really my last chance at being a part of a sorority. I just knew though, that I couldn’t take the place of someone else who really wanted to be there, in case I wouldn’t be able to afford it and would have to drop out. So sadly, I went home.
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