I use to think:
That I would just "grow" out of my perpetual doldrums and just be a "happy-forever-fun-sunshiny" person...
That it all depended on me, so NO ONE can help me with my personal challenges... (I don't have problems--I have challenges
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That I could never show that I made mistakes... But I realized that sometimes, it takes admitting when I fail, so I have to pick myself up, dust myself off and begin again... (Riley and Urbane!!!
THIS IS FOR YOU
'Cuz if I didn't
force myself to believe that--I would NOT be ON the graduation stage to be hooded for my DOCTORATE TODAY... So, NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES--JUST DO IT!!!--FOR AS LONG AS "THEY" LET YOU!!!
)
(and Riley, PM me... Tell me the dealyo--I KNOW what you are going thru!!!
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That since I just knew it all, I had to DO it all... But, I had to follow God's will for me to fulfill His name and praise Him... Thine will, not mine... And the Spirit transformed me... Moreover, when Christ needs to get hold of me and set me skrait--GUESS WHAT??? He WILL and He DID
!!! In more ways than one...
That like all my sorors and SFs and guests, I thought I'd be married with 2.1 kiddies by now with a IL750, and 5 bed/4 bath house in hills of SoCal... At the same time, all my little friends that got married are now divorced--
if they got married, or in therapy, or are resided in a battered women's shelter... Be careful what you wish for--you might just get it...
And lastly, I am different now due to my growth because when I decided to follow in the Spirit, my soul just opened up and I finally realized how truly Blessed I was!!! Whereas, before, I thought I deserved nothing, I allowed myself to be a doormat for everybody, and I thought I was a luser... But see, it was revealed to me that God had different plans for me...
