WOOHOO! My dad said he's not sending it!!!!! Can you imagine my relief and happiness right now?!
It's just that I had such a rough day today and could not stop thinking about it at school. I cried in most of my classes, and just was a walking zombie today. I talked to a few of my awesome teachers, and told them what was going on. They gave me amazing advice and really helped me get through the day. My teachers all told me that they think I'm a private school kid anyway, because I'm the type of person who really needs to connect with people. One teacher said, "I found that quality in you the first week you joined my class. I could tell that you weren't satisfied with just sitting passively in class. I really like that you seek people out and genuinely like to talk with your teachers." This teacher of mine went to Duke and he so knows what I mean when I describe the reasons I have for liking SC so much! Though I think Duke is BY FAR more well-known and of better academic quality, my teacher said he puts SC and Duke in the same category as a "good, private, and spirited school."
In my math class, I was sniffling, feeling down, and spacing out, and my guy friend in front of me was writing rapidly on his piece of paper. Near the end of class, he handed it to me. I just burst out crying when I read it...it just really struck a cord in me. Here's what he wrote:
"On a narrow bridge,
you feel a sway,
A slight breeze in early May,
You cross to get to the other side,
The breeze blows hard,
The bridge sways wide.
Upon your knees you begin to cry.
Losing faith, you wish so much when you sigh,
Looking up you see the other side
slowly die.
Then you hear the words
"FIGHT ON,"
You stand up and wipe away your tears,
You look straight ahead,
across the bridge,
lies your dream.
The wind undying, you take a step,
Fighting to believe,
You whisper to yourself,
"I will make it, I MUST FIGHT ON."
Then in his letter to me, my friend wrote, "I might not be going to USC...I might not fully understand why you like it so much, but you have to FIGHT ON! Remember that Victory sign you showed me that you said SC does? Isn't "Fight On" USC's motto? Isn't it YOUR motto? ... I might sound silly saying this, but, you can't lose sight of what you want in your future...a future you've worked so hard to earn. Don't let anyone throw it away for you...FIGHT to keep it...you have to go ON...believe in yourself, have some faith...this is just a small bump...everyone has bumps in their life...just remember...FIGHT ON...FIGHT for your dream...FIGHT for your future...FIGHT for yourself."
Geez, that friend of mine -- I had no idea that he was a poet! Anyway, now that I read it, I smile and think, "What a great friend I have," but when I read it in class, I just cried really hard, because to me it seemed that USC was elusive, and that I could never say "Fight on" b/c what if I couldn't be a Trojan?
But now I AM -- once again -- and you can bet I'll always keep this letter he gave me!
FIGHT ON!!!
BTW, I think this
is my new motto
.
P.S. Thank you everyone for encouraging me to keep on going...I appreciate it so much! DeltAlum, yes, I'd love to join a sorority, BUT as of now I truly think that USC is worth perhaps sacrificing joining a sorority...USC means that much to me. My parents and I are making lots of sacrifices for me to attend USC, but I couldn't be happier...
As for the sorority thing, I'll let life take its course (something I rarely do! LOL) and see where it takes me. But, as of now, I'm planning to just keep my options open...but I DO know that once I get to SC, I want to be a Helen (said to be the "official host of the University"). The Hellenes are a service organization at USC BTW. I also want to work at Troy Camp, among other things!