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What a weird two/three days I've had.
On Wednesday night, I wasn't feeling well at all. But I still went out with the girls from the local sorority. We left about 9:30, went to this one bar that was pretty dead. So there was a lot of talking and it didn't go as well as the first time I talked to them. I felt a little out of place and the like. I was dressed how I normally dress but everyone else, naturally, looked at least a little different than I did. I just didn't click at all.
On Thursday afternoon, I ran into the one girl I kinda know who is in AST. She said that a few of them were going out that night (to this giant bar downtown that gets like hundreds of people that I've avoided like the plague) and asked if I wanted to go. I said that I did, figuring why not give it a try.
This time, I decided to try a little different strategy. I have a really easy schedule on Thursday so I went to the big mall outside of town. They have a Forever21 and an Urban Outfitters there. I've never bought a single item of clothing from either place before. I don't even know if I've ever stepped foot in any of those places before, actually.
But I decided that I wanted to dress a little differently than I usually do. I bought a bunch of tanks and dresses. I spent more on clothes yesterday than I think I ever have before in my entire life.
So, I was going to meet them at 10. I started getting ready a little earlier and wore this ruffled tank over jeans. Something I've never worn before in my life. My one roommate (we live in an apartment with two other girls) saw me and flinched. She never saw me in anything like that and asked me where I got that. So I told her and she kind was a little taken aback. Then she asked me what I was up to and I told her who I was hanging out with.
I've been good friends with her since like the first week of freshman year. I wouldn't say she's one of my best friends but we're still fairly close. We had tentative plans to go out last night to see her boyfriend's band but I told her that I was going to do something else. She was pretty upset when I told her where I was going. I told her that one of the girls I knew from class and she was really nice and everything. But she was still a little weird by it.
So I went out with the AST girls. We were at their apartment for a bit first, then we went downtown to the bar.
It was exactly what I'd thought it would be like. It was a little more frat than I'm used to. And the DJ was playing stuff like Lady Gaga and Chris Brown.
I really bit my tongue and made a concerted efford to just ignore the music and have fun. And I really did. I had a drink or two, danced, talked, etc. It was a really good time. I definitely felt like this is what I've been looking for.
I wore something like I did last night. I met a few of my friends for breakfast. My roommate was already there and told people who I went out last night. Her boyfriend (who I don't really like) was there and said something about it. No one else really cared but were joking about whether or not I was going to join a sorority. I just laughed it off.
But I really think I'm interested in rushing next semester.
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