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Originally Posted by Ggirl617
i just want to be able to move past what i'm feeling, and i feel as if i reveal my chapter and school now it will be dragged down with the story. i want to get to a place of satisfaction and be all "i'm an EYELINER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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You can get to that place, but it may take time and a concerted effort on your part. You've only been a new member for what not, a few days?
I remember one of my pledge sisters telling me she didn't find the warm fuzzies until she moved into the chapter house and that was a whole year after she pledged. She confessed that until then she had simply viewed it as another club or activity that she'd committed to. But once she was immersed in sisterhood 24/7 it was like a light bulb had been turned on.
Point being, you are not the only sorority girl who has ever questioned her choice and has had doubts. Just remember everybody is different. Some girls are consumed by the bonds of sisterhood immediately on Bid Day. For others Initiation is a big turning point. Then others, like my pledge sister, take even longer. The common denominator though is always that key moment when a girl truly commits
herself, then she can find meaningful sisterhood because that's when she actually became a sister and not someone who sits on the sidelines dwelling on the would of, could of, should of's.