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I'm not sure how to get your quotes on here but in reply to texas princess, yes i would accept a bid I was offered regardless of what it happened to be ("top" choice or not). I should have done that last year; they deserved a chance. I was being snobby and it was dumb...
In response to fleur de lis... I dont feel "desperate".. my whole issue is that I wasnt sure if certain things were even important to the process (being tan, extracurriculars, etc).. I just wanted to see exactly how much weight each of these facets held. No exact answers, but opinions I guess. I'm not trying to "fix all my problems".
This is how I look at it:
I missed out on something great because I allowed myself to be controlled by my boyfriend (a guy I had been dating since I was in middle school, ridiculous i know). I made a terrible mistake and ever since that moment I've felt deep regret. I hate regret. I'd rather make a fool out of myself than feel regret about something. I decided to rush and for some crazy reason I decided all of the sudden that there was no way in hell I wouldnt get a bid to a "top" house. I'm not sure why I felt this insurgence of confidence but for some reason I did. All of this just made the rejection unbearable...I built myself up, made myself fall hard. I screwed up not giving the house that didnt reject me a chance.
I keep thinking..dont rush again, you'll be seen as "desperate" and people will wonder why you didnt get a bid last time/what happened/etc... then I think about like 15 years down the road when I'm older..am I going to wonder what would have happened? Will I even care.. well just in case I do, I think I'm gonna give it another shot. Someone posted above that I was over analyzing/over thinking this and I think they're right. I always do that...ha and I guess its not the best thing. Hopefully it will work out..
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