Dart246,
If you do think strongly about suicide, PLEASE........
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is a 24-hour, toll-free suicide prevention service . If you need help, please dial 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
Web site:
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline...FSQhDQodwhUylg
I want you to get help for yourself first. Then you may be better able to help your fraternity, if that's something you feel like doing in the future.
Take care of yourself!