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Originally Posted by libramunoz
What kind of torture did you need to see from me? What?
Hell, here it is for you, for 6 months, I was depressed as hell. I hated my job, couldn't concentrate from it, couldn't think clearly, and one day, I wanted to kill my damn self!
I was sitting on the bed, thinking about getting out the shotgun, putting in the bullets, and blowing out my Goddamned brain!
Is that what you wanted/needed to see?
Thank YOU JESUS that HE came into my room and made me think about the effect that I would leave. How I would hurt my mother, how I would hurt my grandparents (3 of which were deceased), how I would hurt my siblings.
HE made me see that if we were struggling to keep afloat on the farm that killing myself would make things worse because of the fact that who was about to bury my big ass?
My mother had just lost her father, 16 months before, she'd just lost her oldest sister, and in 2005, she lost her brother. My brother is mentally gone and physically a fool! God made my crazy ASS THINK of the consequences to my just about to be dumb ass actions!
Shit Monet, is this what you wanted to see? Is this the torture that you needed? Goddamn!
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Originally Posted by libramunoz
Shit Monet, get off the crack!
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I was not pointing out your torture... I was pointing out my own torture...
Since you chose to post your angst on GC, which is not recommended, I would highly recommend coming to the "Isle" where others, some from GC, can find sanctuary.
PM me if you want a Travel Visa. There is a cost associated due to the security and protect of comments for the best practices badges.