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November 11, 2001....Happy 19th Birthday to me! My birthday party got a little out of control, and one of my really good guy friends and I ended up just going for it. We had been flirting and into eachother for quite some time, but we established that night that we would be horrible as a couple. The sex was the absolute most painful thing in the whole wide world, but he was nice and careful about the whole thing. Sometimes I wish I would have waited til I was in love, but the whole experience felt right and I don't regret it. For about two weeks afterwards I kept waiting for regret to set in, but it never happened. I certainly learned alot, even though it was obviously not as good for me as it was for him! I'm really proud that I held out til 19 though...it was probably the best decision I've ever made, being a virgin for that long I mean. It really is such a huge deal emotionally, especially for girls.
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