sorry, i really should have elaborated earlier.
i go to school in the deep south where being a greek means a lot. i also came to this school not knowing a soul. this was not to my advantage for several reasons: 1) i didn't know the girls in the "it" sororities like many others did b/c they went to hs with them and i didn't get good recs from alumns from my school since i knew none 2) i rushed not because my heart was into being in a sorority but only because i wanted to make friends fast.
so i rushed, and i got a bid, which is pretty amazing considering that only 60% of the girls who start out going through rush get bids.
i've been very active in my organization. i've held an office for 2 years now and have put my heart and soul into it. i have attended almost every event and spent over $300 on my little sister this past semester.
even through all this, something is still missing. i dont have that bond with my pledge class. i dread every chapter, every meeting, every retreat, every philanthropy event. its like pulling teeth. there is so much drama involved in my organization that it is ridiculous. last semester, we were honored with having the lowest cumulative GPA on campus (2.5) and that makes me sick (I had a 3.2). Each time I have to do something with my sisters I never know whether I will be ignored there entire time (75% of the time I go to stuff) or barely spoken to (the other 25% of the time I attend our functions).
I have no REAL friends in my sorority. Sure, I have girls I sit with in class and laugh and gossip to, but no one I do anything with outside of class or sorority related events. My little sister was even talking sh!t about me at study hours the other night in the library and didn't know I heard her.
I'm just not happy. Does that clarify it at all?
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