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i was very interested in an organization my sophmore yr in college..i never really asked myself why i wanted to join one but i felt as if it would help me meet new ppl and form a sisterhood, i did my research and found one tht matched my personality and caught my eye. i went to their events as much as i could and tried to make myself noticable to them, however im a shy individual so it took me awhile to actually go up to them and make conversation, i guess after getting their contacts and talked to them i was pre-pledging i suppose and i siked myself out and got afraid to continue with it, one day i saw one of the current linesisters and told her i wasnt sure if i was ready and i guess that rubbed on her the wrong way, i havent gone to any events since or called any of them because im too nervous to talk to them and too they are currently making there line for this yr. i doubt they would want to hear anything from me, but i want to join this yr and needless to say they only make a line every 2 yrs so my senior yr will be my nxt chance, idk what to do..i think about it all the time, i dream about it so i know thats a symbol that its for me but my shyness is heavily holding me back. if anyone can tell me what to do, how do i overcome this, and too would it be very bad if i become a little sister to a frat as a backup , because i do want to be in the area of those in an organization