[WVU alpha phi]

Tinia, that story is horrible. I would die if I saw HIV on the top on the list. Good thing you recommended a change.

So we are supposed to go tonight after work for the rapid testing. He said he will ask for his results first. I couldn't sleep last night, I've barely ate, my boss wants to send me home because I look so awful (I'm sick to begin with and my eyes are swollen from crying so much). My friends keep telling me to take a step back and remove myself from the situation and think of the unliklihood of having it. All I can think of is those people who say "I never thought it would happen to me" and this stupid Lifetime movie I watched 2 weeks ago about a girl sleeping with an infected boy ONCE and she gets HIV.

I've never slept with anyone who's a drug user with needles and supposedly blood to blood contact is the easiest way to get it. I'm just so scared. I seriously want to call and cancel and pretend this never happened.