[lilmissgreek10]

When I returned the third night, I received my invitation card and was devastated. I had been cut from Clubs, Diamonds, and, most importantly, Spades.

I was invited back to Hearts, but as I began to talk to the other freshmen, it seemed a lot of girls had been invited back to Hearts.

Since my party at Hearts wasn't for an hour, I sat in a corner and cried. A lot of other girls were crying, too. Many of them decided to drop out of Recruitment right then, and I was considering it. I didn't understand what I had done wrong - I knew girls in Spades, and I felt like they had betrayed me. Even though I didn't like Diamonds that much, I also didn't understand why I wasn't good enough. I later found out that Clubs wanted to invite me back, but since I had cut them, I didn't receive an invitation.

As I sat on the floor, one of the Rho Gammas came over to comfort me. She encouraged me to give Hearts a try - even though they weren't my first choice, I had nothing to lose by going to their party. I knew she was right - and I had ranked them second the night before. I went to the party and though I wasn't impressed with their theme, I had a good time. The sisters were really upbeat and outgoing, and I had a great conversation. Nonetheless, walking home that night, I felt crushed. For a week I had put my heart into this and had agonized over my clothes, done my hair and makeup meticulously, chatted and smiled unrtil my face hurt - why didn't any of these girls want me? To make matters worse, three girls on my floor had been invited back to Spades and said their party was amazing. I cried myself to sleep that night.