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This might be a rush infraction, but a sister who had led me around the night before, was in the class a floor below me and recognized me. We didn’t talk about recruitment at all. I thought it was cool she was friendly.

This was a great night. I got to go to my chemistry lecture all done up. I don’t think I’ve ever had so many looks. I was really nervous to open my schedule and it seemed like forever to actually be allowed to look. The Rho Gammas looked so weird dressed up!

The schedule for the evening:
Trojans
Cardinals
I still got two that I liked, but it hurt to not see Sun Devils. I realize that its secret and that no one can tell me why, but I don’t really understand why I wasn’t asked back. Oh well, I only need one house to have a home and it will be where I belong.

Trojans: Tonight we were given food with our visit. There was this great caesar salad and rolls. I loved it. It seemed so… I can’t come up with it. I loved it. My sister took me up stairs and into her room. We shared the room with another sister and PNM. The sister asked me flat out if I liked this house. I thought that was a little forward. I did like the house. We weren’t exactly clicking, but that seemed to be common for me at this house. The sister brought me down stairs and handed me a flower. The ceremony was beautiful. Six sisters (including mine) went forward to sing a cappella. Three senior sisters told their stories about how Trojans had helped them or how much it had meant to them. I am not a crier but I was tearing up and there was the lump in my throat. Crying meant a lot to me and I saw this as a sign. I felt like I was meant to be here. My sister handed me a pearl (I figure this is general enough to say) and at my turn I tried to throw it into a bowl. Tried being the underlined word. I completely missed. The sister began joking with me about how the girls they choose are the ones who make it into the bowl. She was laughing as she said it. It was really funny and I loved it. I was pretty happy here and felt really good.

Cardinals: I was nervous. What if I liked this house just as much as the last one? Would I be able to choose? The same sister from yesterday called me today. There were two dessert options: chocolate cake or cheesecake. I had to go for chocolate cake. The sister and I joked around for a while about how our table decoration had caught on fire during the first group. After dinner the sister took me upstairs to her room and showed me some of her momentos. The first were her first letters. You get your big sis about the same time as initiation and she buys you your first letters. The next was a scrapbook. Instead of getting a paddle or anything you get a scrapbook. It was adorable. In the book, she had her bid day card. She laughed saying she was surprised she even had it because she was running so fast. We were then called down to the front room where we stood arms linked together. The sisters passed around a flower, each pulling off a few petals saying, “Without me there would be no ___.” I thought that was so cool. Then everyone in the sorority sang two songs. I didn’t cry. I just felt comfortable. There was no emotional feeling, just comfort.

There was supposed to be silence walking back to the lecture hall. Instead, I called my mom, which I think should totally be allowed. I cried talking to my mom when telling her about Trojans. She asked why I was hesitating because I was crying during my story and obviously I cared if I was crying (I really rarely cry, it’s a big deal). Yet, for some reason, I was hesitating. I went into the lecture hall with my mom’s blessing of whatever I want is okay. Well that didn’t help with the decision making. I thought of all the pros and cons and still couldn’t make up my mind.

Trojans: I hadn’t been positive all week about how I had felt. The house was great and right by campus. I could have my own room when I lived in when I was older. I had cried tonight
Cardinals: The girls were great. I cared about their philanthropy. The sisters laughed. The house was cute. I loved the idea of painting the rooms. The house would really bond as everyone lived on the porch.

I could not decide. So I talked to a Rho Gamma. Who oddly enough remembered my name although I had only met her once. This was probably the best Rho Gamma I have ever seen or heard of. She started saying that they were both great organizations and that she couldn’t really help me choose, but to talk it out to her.
Even after talking to her, I couldn’t decide who to put at one and who at two. Everytime I picked my pencil up, I felt beyond unsure. I ended up going by the reaction I had received when I asked for recommendation letters (yes, that’s right, how you act is important) The Cardinal woman was like okay sure whatever. The two Trojan ladies had been very enthusiastic. Not only because I was possibly going to be in their sorority, but because I was possibly going to be Greek.
With a sick feeling in my stomach, I wrote
1 Trojans
2 Cardinals

I would be happy with either house no matter which way I would go.
If I had not had a really embarrassing moment that night which took over my mind, I might not have slept. Luckily, it did and I slept, with dreams of sororities.