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Philanthropy Day

I felt so nervous. I hadn’t thought of it before this morning, but what if all the chapters hated me? Would my Rho Gamma call? I was nervous for most of the day.

The four of us walked to the lecture hall in silence. I think we were all nervous. After about a few minutes of Panhellenic talking, we received our schedules. On a day where we had a maximun of 7, I had 5. I know that I should have been happy to be invited to any houses, but it still hurt to be cut by any houses.
My houses:

Wildcat
Beavers
Break
Cougars
Ducks
break
Huskies

Not a bad schedule, though I had to wonder what happened at Sun Devils? I knew I was tired at Bears, but was I that bad? I shook it off and realized that I still had my favorites, and that I’ll be okay. Until I realized all my friends had more parties than me. Denver and Boston had one break each and Chicago had a full schedule of all but one of her favorites. Denver still had bears and Boston hadn’t lost any favorites, so neither one was too upset. It is a weird feeling to have of people choosing your friends over you. Maybe that is insecurity but it is a weird feeling to find yourself with.

Wildcat: It ended up that Chicago and I both had wildcat first. This time we waited inside the house and instead of randomly grabbing us they called our names. The sister and I paired up with another sister/PNM group and did an activity. I did not like the activity much. It was too simple and took maybe a minute. I really hit it off with the other sister while the other girl hit it off with ‘my’ sister. I was really nervous from the cuts I had received and tried to act really enthusiastic with the activity and the house tour. I tried way too hard and I could tell during the house tour inparticular. Still liked the house though.

Beavers: LONG WALK!!! Wildcat and Beavers were on complete opposite ends of Greek Row, but I was really happy to be there. I was not solo this time around, but I loved this sorority. The philanthropy was sweet and the house was great. This activity was a little better. I was able to do something and feel productive anyway. The girl who gave me the house tour made ice feel warm though. It was as if she hated the sight of me. I loved the house more and more even with the tour girl.

I had a break at this time and my boyfriend met up with me for coffee. He isn’t at school but is working. He somehow happened to have this weekend off. Although he isn’t that into the idea of a sorority, (too many bad stereotypes, I think) he was willing to listen to me blab on and on and support me with the cuts.

Cougars: I was grabbed by a new girl this time and paired with another PNM. I felt refreshed from the coffee and the support of my boyfriend, so I decided to try to get invites as much as possible. Cougars were going full force! It was a cute philanthropy activity, but again I felt uncomfortable. The house was cute but I think I was lead through the back way. It looked like the back entrance. It isn't a bad thing, but considering I had only seen the pretty side of the houses, it stuck in my mind. Who knows maybe they were trying to be more real and showing me the actual house. It was the second day and I still hadn’t met any girls I felt like I could be close to. One sister I had was definitely a new sister with how obvious she was with bumping. I am beginning to feel like a lot of the people do not want to be at this house. I love everything about this sorority, their philanthropy, symbols etc. I just wasn't feeling comfortable. I don’t know I still have a few days

Ducks: I was picked up by someone new again, but was paired with one of the girls from yesterday who had known some of the sisters, which made me a little nervous. I was an early girl to be chosen and another sister who was waiting her turn saw me and said hi. She told the sister leading me to have me talk to a sister from my hometown. I felt so special that not only she remembered me on site, but she remembered my hometown as well! Eventually, the other PNM and I were split up as I went to talk to hometown sister. I loved her! She seemed so sad to have to give me to another sister for a house tour . I wanted her to come with me! The house was… amazing. I could see myself in any of the rooms, eating breakfast in the kitchen in pjs, brushing my teeth, just living here and being happy. I also saw an annex house, which I loved the idea of! I feel so silly for disliking the symbols yesterday. I don’t even know why that popped into my head! The philanthropy was also so sweet! I was more in love with this house today than yesterday!

Break number two. This time I ate lunch with the boyfriend, who was sweet enough to meet up with me again and hear me talk. I was lucky to have a break at this time because we would be missing the dining hall dinners and the sororities were only giving us small snacks. Another little pep talk later and I was on my way.

Huskies: I was called by name here and was solo. I learned about activities that the sorority puts on for fundraising and was really surprised by some. I did not do well at the craft but the sister seemed to want to move onto the house tour anyway. I loved the house! Although the downstairs was somewhat dark, the upstairs was roomy. On display were some of the letter shirts they have had over the past few years and I could definitely see myself wearing one.

I was unable to cut any houses so I went home and promptly fell asleep. Everyone else followed suit, after ranking that is, I think we were all still tired from the day before.