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Bid Day
I woke up just knowing I was getting a bid from serena. I let them know I loved them and got to know the girls so on such a diferent level. it was not 'girls I got to know at recuitment'. It was girls I wanted to share my life and memories with. I was so excited. I dressed up in clothes I wanted to wear for Serena. I had never been so excited to walk the long walk to campus as this day. I walked to my group leader, they gave me an envelopeand told me to sit on it (they did not want us to try to decipher where we got a bid to till they did their speel). my leaders revealed themeselves (a Marissa and a Ryan). They talked about hw much they enjoyed this process with us andtold us as soon as we opened up our envelopes to RUN to the house to join our sisters!
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I opened up my letter!!!!!!
This is a bid for 'aprocess' to join the house of....
Marissa.....
I was devestated. But like the other girls who ran to their house, I speed walked to Marissa. As I walked I could not figure out where I went wrong. I thought it was all good. I knew I wanted to be affiliated. Espescially since I had been so envious of my roomate and the memoreies she created her college year. So I continued to speed walk.
i passed several other houses--including serena. That one made me so sad. I saw all the girls I had met during the week. I started to walk slower now.
It stuck me.
I did not know one girl's name in marissa. I knew at least 12 in Serena, but not one girl stuck out or I had a memorale time with. This depressed me. I thought this was my decision, i thought both houses wanted me and I got to pick where I ended up. I did not know what happened.
I decided to make a left at a street away from the houses. I called my roomate so she could pick me up.
I no longer had a boyfriend I could cry to like I did last year. I felt so rejected.
My roomate came and picked me up and took me home where i wasn't just depressed about recruitment, but that i had n one to share that feeling with who would understand.
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