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That Night
I laid out my dress for recruitment.
Makeup...... check
Purse...... check
Heels...... check
Dress...... check
Sleeping sucked. In my head I thought:
What if that political conversation really messed me up at a chance at Serena?
I loved Jessie, but does she like me or is she faking it?
What if I have bags under my eyes since I am lying awake thinking about this.
I finally fell asleep and work up before my alarm even sounded. While I got ready I thought:
Should I prepare some questions to talk about? Should I have topics to talk about?
What should I talk about?
I literally have exhaused every good topic with Serena. The girls really knew a lot about me. I decided not to think of any topics or questions. If it was meant to be, then the conversation would flow.
I headed out the door and suddenly thought "DUDE WHAT IF SERENA'S NOT EVEN ON MY PREF LIST?!?!?!"
I was scarred to death.
I walked to our meeting place with so many twists in my stomach.
The Group Leaders were being so slow. They knew that a lot of girls were going to drop because their tops might not be on the list. They told us that if they saw us open the pieces of paper they were going to give us with our schedules, that they would take it away. They made a speech that basically told us NOT to talk to each other, this was supposed to be our own personal decision, they said to go to the houses no matter what and give them an equal chance FINALLY she passed out the pieces of paper.
I walked away from the group as instructed. My hand was holding my future. I KNEW if Ryan and Serena were on there, I would HAPPILY be in either organization. I did not walk to my normal 'lucky spot'. I just took deep breaths and then stared at the folded piece of paper.
I opened it and.....
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