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MeezDiscreet:
Thank you so much for those verses! While watching Joyce Meyer one morning, she stated that we need to start asking God for favor. So, prior to the interview, I asked God for favor and I TRULY believed that He heard my prayers and allowed me to have a great interview. Honestly, I went in there stating that the job was mine and when I left, I KNEW that I had that job. That's how good I felt.
I felt even better the next day when my line sister saw my future boss at work (she works in the same courthouse) and he told her that he had met with me and two other classmates of ours. I felt good because he recalled me by name and not the other two applicants, even though I was first. That gave me the feeling that I made a lasting impression. But somewhere along the way, I started doubting myself. It really hit me the other day because I was waiting for a follow-up call from my boss when I got a text message about another job. That prompted me to start doubting and I took that text as a sign that I may not get my position.
After I posted the Open Letter tonight, I sent an email to an old schoolmate and was telling her about the job and how I was confident I would get it. However, everytime my confidence gets high, the devil starts planting seeds of doubt in my mind. Lo and behold, when I came back to read this thread, you had used the exact words I just used in that email! I MUST stand firm on my faith and stop allowing the devil to make me doubt myself.
Just two or three weeks ago in Mass, we were told that we must not be so quick to doubt and abandon the fact that God hear our prayers. I know that I am quick to doubt. I guess it's my defense mechanism. That way, when things fail, I can say that I always knew they would. But I realize that it's more self-sabotage because I allow the devil to take me off track. But NOT THIS TIME, buddy!!
I must stand firm on the same faith that I went in and left out with. When my phone rings on Monday, victory SHALL be mine! This is MY job!
PD1:
Thanks!
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