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Invites for Day 7 -
I came to meet up with my Rho Chi group and the lists were passed out. I was so excited to see where I would be going back for Preference. The Rho Chi’s starting passing out the lists and when the Rho Chi I had befriended got to my desk, she couldn't look at me. I soon found out why. My heart dropped when I saw the names of the houses on my schedule. The houses I would go to for Preference were...
Packers
Bears
I was heartbroken – how could the Bengals drop me? I didn’t understand how I could have been so wrong about the connections I made there. Despite the way I was feeling, I still really wanted to be in a sorority and decided that I should suck it up and give the Packers and Bears another look. They saw something in me, so maybe I should take a closer look at them.
Day 7 - Preference
The Bears was the first chapter I visited. I was picked up by a girl I didn't know who told me there were quite a few girls in the house who were excited to have me back. I was still in such shock from earlier in the day I didn't really respond (how rude of me). We ate a little bit, then they did the preference ceremony. I could tell the members were really into it (some people were tearing up), but I did not feel like this chapter was my home. I left the party feeling uncomfortable and unsure if I would find the place for me.
At the Packers party the really chatty girl that gave me a house tour picked me up. We grabbed some food and then sat down on a loveseat to chat. Luckily she was just as talkative as before, because I was still in shock and pretty quiet (which is unusual for me). We gathered in a circle for the ceremony and a couple members sang a really beautiful song where they harmonized with each other. It made me get a little teary, though I think some of that was due to the all the emotions from the week. I felt better about this chapter, but I still wasn't sure I wanted to be a Packer.
After the party I went back to my Rho Chi group and had to rank the two sororities in order of which I wanted to be in. I knew I didn't feel comfortable at the Bears house, but I wasn't sure how I felt about the Packers. I was still thinking about being dropped from my favorite houses, and I found it tough to fill out my card. The thought never occurred to me to drop out of rush as I really wanted to be in a sorority. Eventually I filled out my preferences and ranked the houses like this:
1. Packers
2. Bears
On the way home I had a knot in my stomach because I still wasn't sure I wanted to be a Packer, and I was pretty sure I didn’t want to be a Bear. I would just have to wait and see what bid day held.
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