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Hi everyone,
Ok first off. I shouldn't have posted those things...I wasn't thinking particularly clearly and I feel bad now. Thus why they are deleted. I just get so frustrated because I feel like no one understands my point of view, so I want to know that someone can at least see where I'm coming from. But anyway, it wasn't right so now that's done with. I don't even know what to do...sometimes I feel like we never even had a sisterhood, it was all just business to get things off the ground. I hate being Prez sometimes, I just feel so disconnected from the rest of the group. Part of that is because my girls plan these social activities that I really just don't want to do- like driving forty five minutes to go to these crowded, ghetto clubs out in an entirely different city. That's just not my scene you know? But they get offended because I don't go. I really have had no fun at those places- we've been before and I didn't enjoy it at all...and when I try to plan other ideas they just don't get received well. Or they'll have frat guys from other schools (schools at least forty five minutes away, sometimes a couple hours) over to party on school nights..I just can't do that. I really can't. I'm so tired after everything I do during the week, there's no time for me to have fun until the weekend. Maybe I'm just being selfish I don't know. Anyway, I gave up on the flyer thing. I do feel like I was trying to make the best decision, but I guess I have to give on some things also. It kills me to see so much of our money go towards something that I feel is unnecesary crap, but if I try to fight it any more I'm just going to piss people off. Everything has to be a compromise, but I feel like just giving up sometimes- I didn't start a sorority to have everyone hate me you know? I don't even know what to do. I emailed Mary and begged her for help, but she's just as busy as I am so she probably hasn't even checked her email yet. And we haven't heard from any other national groups yet...I feel like we're slipping down a hill and I don't know how to get us going again. No wonder they think I'm a bad president. Sorry this is so depressed, and sorry again for posting those convos, I feel really bad about that.
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