While I completely understand what most of the responses are saying, I suppose I didn't articulate myself very well so I'll attempt to do that now.
The point of my post was to say that I had had a very difficult time in my collegiate years and was wondering what life as an alumna was like- if it was even worth it, etc. The only reason why I made the post so detailed and full of information (that was not intended to make my Sorority look bad but to explain what I had been through) was simply to chronicle WHY I had such a hard time in my collegiate years. I also think it's important to note that I did say I loved (and love) my Sorority. I even respect my sisters despite how I feel I was treated by them, because I know it can't be easy to understand someone who was going through what I went through at the time! I also think it's important to note that due to my perspective on the situation I made it appear that I felt I was blameless- I know that is not the case because my reclusive nature pushed them away when I was going through my depression, but I don't think that the blame for my experience should be pinned on me, either, considering how active I was when I first joined before my Depression kicked in. Again, my story is exactly that- my story, from my point of view, and that's all.
It is not about needing validation (I never said I was always in the right or that they treated me unfairly- it was more just the fact that they didn't understand what I was going through so they didn't understand why I was so reclusive) or me just whining and I apologize if that's the way it came across. I'm simply just wanting support from other women- regardless of whether they've been through my situation or not. It is hard to get over your past experiences to look forward to the years as an alumna when the only sorority experience you've had wasn't what you expected, so the advice I was looking for was whether or not you think that after an experience like this if being an active alumna is worth it!
I hope that cleared things up a bit- and I've reminded myself that making long posts at 3:30am is probably not a good idea :P
So to those of you who got the point of my post and responded accordingly, thank you for the advice. I really appreciate it and have taken it to heart.