[OneHeartOneWay]

I agree with the advice given above by other posters regarding formal recruitment (and, of course, for seeking professional treatment options). However, let me offer a slightly different thought, as well. You said you go to a small school. Even though it has a large Greek population, how often do the chapters have informal recruitment events? Even though every chapter may not be available to you by sitting out formal recruitment, perhaps you would feel more comfortable and make a stronger impression through less structured, (often smaller and less "busy" parties) such that COB/ CR events offer. I'm not trying to dissuade you from formal recruitment, but rather it would be a shame for your true personality to get lost in the hustle-bustle of formal recruitment- an anxious situation for ANY PNM! Others may disagree, but just a thought...