[bowchicka09]

Day Three:
This morning I found out that Kirk was only accepting freshmen this year, and that knowledge gave me total peace about the entire process. The roomies and I went to get our invitations for the day and everyone was pretty happy about what they got. I got invites to Miss Patty and Luke (and I was not at all surprised that I wasn’t invited back to Rory). Christy was invited back to Rory and Miss Patty, and, Thank God, Hannah was invited back to Miss Patty. They still weren’t really talking to each other. Honestly, after Rush they were never really friends again. It’s kind of sad, but I guess stressful situations bring out they way we really feel.
I was going back and forth between Miss Patty and Luke. On one hand, I liked the girls in Miss Patty and Hannah was most likely going to go there (at our school, if you are invited to their Pref party, you are automatically somewhere on their bid list). But I felt like it wasn’t really a perfect fit- I was already changing myself to fit in better with the other sisters. On the other hand, there was Luke- they were all very genuine and sweet, and a lot of them were just like me. But I hadn’t really felt a sisterly connection with them, either. I was sooo confused and had no idea what I was going to do.

Pref Night~ I wore a black cocktail dress and heels.
Luke- They did a little ceremony, and then you talked to one of the sisters for like 30 min, then another little ceremony. I have to be honest, I don’t even remember the first part of the ceremony, I was kind of zoned out and I thought it was a little weird (I had no idea what to expect). But then, I talked such an awesome girl- I felt like we talked about my whole life in that 30 minutes. The thing that stood out to me is that she said she had actually pledged another sorority (she didn’t tell me which) and she had felt so uncomfortable because they were so different from her, she felt like she had to change her whole personality for them. This was so in tune with what I was feeling, it was crazy. She said that I should pick the sorority that I feel most comfortable with, and that would support me on my worst days, not just my best. After that, I loved the next ceremony they did, they gave us each a rose and we placed it into a wishing well, symbolizing our wishes coming true. I left this Pref walking on a cloud.

Miss Patty- Their ceremony was very touching and personal, with sisters reading letters to each other about how much they mean to each other. However, I couldn’t help but compare them with Luke, I think that if I had gone there first, it would have been better. I was Preffed there by a very sweet girl who was really focused on finding out which way I was leaning. We talked about what I was looking for in a sorority. Something about her personality was very inviting and sweet, and we talked for a long time about our real sisters (we both had younger sisters), and about how that is such a special relationship, and how your sorority sisters are always there for you. During this entire conversation, I felt completely at ease, not like I was trying to be someone else at all. And, if I joined Miss Patty, my best friend would become my sister! I left this Pref so confused and wondering what to do.

After this party, we had to rank for the first time. I sat in a classroom with about 40 other girls. For a while I just stared blankly at the paper. In my head, I was factoring about a million different things for each group- but, in my heart, I already knew who I wanted to write down. After about 30 minutes I wrote two names on my paper and handed it in.