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Amycat and Hootie, I really agree with you all on this. It's part of that "first love" phenomenon.
This ex drove from Lawrence Ks to Houston with a friend and came to Steak and Ale where I was singing. Gosh I can remember this so clearly. Sure I was "pumped" at the effort, but thought I'd better let him know about my involvement. I said, "You're talking to an almost married lady." (dumb sounding I know PLUS I didn't get married for 4 more YEARS) He replied, "I wanted to let you know I plan on getting married in August."
I know my mouth dropped and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I never even LOVED this guy except in the sense he was always there and I had the security of knowing how much he loved me. (very selfish). The rest of the conversation was stilted and then-they were gone. His buddy called me and told me it was the last ditch effort at a relationship.
Now, the really sad thing is, I have seen him at the HS reunions (as well as mysteriously running into him when I would go home for a visit) and he shows me pics of his kids and we talk-even dance. His wife still hates me after all these years (don't blame her) in fact that whole damn female crowd hates me...STILL. He has called here and says stuff like "What if?" and all that jazz. At this point, I can't tell him there NEVER was a what if situation. I won't because he has romanticized over 3 DECADES in his mind.
I think about him from time to time, and I'm sure you will think about your ex from time to time as well. It just seems someone always loves a little deeper than the other and you may be the one he will ALWAYS remember as true love-and the one who got away.
This may have been the worst thing I ever did to another because as I reflect on this, I know I encouraged his devotion for my own ego...
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