[asa06091987]

to be honest. i felt the same way. my chapter was having internal difficulties during my new member program that i was thrown into after initiation. i joined to find myself...to find friends and a home or whatever, and it just didnt feel like one. heres what i did. i sat down and thought about why i wanted to stay. and if i could think of three reasons (or more, or less) that trumped my reasons for wanting to leave (even just a litle)... like a specific person, or a specific memory, or something that i had wanted--a position, a little etc.... then i decided that i would stay..
i was able to find them, and even though part of me still wanted to leave... staying meant that i had a voice, i could tell girls what i didnt like, or how i felt, and change it so that others wouldnt have the same problem... it turned out that i wasnt the only one who felt that way...and with everyones help--we are closer than ever.