Honestly, it doesn't generally bother me. When I saw the situation cited so many times in this thread I wanted to respond, but in my day to day activities, I don't think about it.
I think it's sad, because you are ultimately the one that misses out, but does it make me angry? No. Like I said before, I don't think it makes you a bad person, just misguided.
It seems also like a lot of the issues you have are mixed up. You are confusing class issues with race issues. The behavior you are citing like asking why you "talk so white" is more about class than race (I know some poor white folk that could not speak properly if their lives depended on it). Black people who are not middle class might ask that question, but most middle class black people speak english quite properly. MOST blacks are middle class.
So once again, it comes back to perception. You don't really want to widen your circle. That is ultimately what keeps you from associating yourself with black people, the fact that you don't want to- not necessarily how they treat you. Like I said before, I think that is sad. I wonder how much you honestly like yourself when you refuse to associate with the community you come from(and that is not meant as an insult, but as a true question). But also like I said before, if it makes you happy then do your thing.
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