I'm sorry that your rush experience wasn't as you had hoped. I agree with everyone about going through fall rush once again. IF then you have the same experience as your previous one, I'd suggest starting a local sorority with a few non-greek but want to go go greek friends. It's very hard work and it has its ups and downs, but can be very rewarding and you will fill comfortable and then you can later affiliate with an NPC. That's how my sorority got started and now we are affiliating with an NPC. I wish you luck in whatever you decide.