ok, so all of 5.2 seconds go by and i am already getting weirded out.
let me first just say that i am used to exactly the opposite of what this guy is. i mean, the last idiot i dated threw a trash can lid at my head for Emily Helen Butterfield's sake...-sigh- but...the thing is that i am used to that...i know how to deal with that situation in my life b/c it's "normal"...this nice-guy thing, totally and serisouly makes me unbelievably nervous and i'm juuuuuuust liiiiiiike, "oh, God-" and i don't know what to do. i don't want to wig out or anything and just blow this b/c he really is super wonderful...but at the same time i don't know how much of a !!!!!!!serious!!!!!!!! relationship i can handle right now b/c if you have read anything about that air force boy
, you should realize my trauma right now. <grumble> this really is ridiculous, i know...but if anyone has any encouraging words about being in drama-filled relationships and then how to cope with finally being in one that is healthy and normal, i would really appreciate it. he just makes me nervous being so un-mean.
loyally,
monica
