Hello lovely GC'ers
It has been a long time since i last posted and i have so much to share. No one, besides my family and the sororities that I am rushing, know that i have decided to give Going Greek another chance. This is because in case i dont get a bid again, i dont want to be the girl who "didnt get in twice". This means that besides my stepmom, i have no one to really talk about this to, so i am very excited to get this all out of my stomach and hear some feedback!
Okay, so as stated before i have been going to Alpha and Beta events. On the first day of Rush, i went to a Beta Event first. I was having a okay time, talking to a lot of girls and having good conversations. About an hour into the event i excused myself and went to the bathroom. As I was just about the exit the stall, a couple of Beta girls walked in. One of them, whom we shall call Kristin, was a Rho Gamma last year and now has a very high position within PHA was there with one of her sisters. They started discussing some of the PNMs and Kristin said : "Omigosh! Who does [insert my name here] think she is coming to our event! Alpha didnt want her so i guess she thinks she has a chance with us! That bitch better not talk to me!" Her sister said "I dont really think its fair to hold that against her. I mean, its not like we invited her to pref night. And a lot of the the sisters really like her a lot. You should give her a chance". Kristin's response was "Whatever!"
I waited in my stall a couple minutes until the girls had left the bathroom to go back to the event. The entire rest of the time I was there my heart was beating so fast and i felt like i could not even carry a conversation so i decided to go back home. The entire time I was driving back to my apartment tears were running down my face and as soon as i got home i just cried. I felt so hurt by the comments Kristin had said about me. I called my step mom who had a leadership position at her school's PHA years ago. She was so upset by what I had told her that she wanted to call my college's Director of Greek Affairs and tell him what happened since she did not think this type of behavior was becoming of a Recruitment Counselor. Thankfully i talked her of calling him. I told my stepmom that i did not want to go to anymore rush events for Alpha or Beta because i honestly did not want to deal with this type of drama. Thankfully, she talk me out of that.
She told me that in every chapter there are going to be girls i dont get along with and to wait and see who i get bid from before i start flipping out.
After i calmed down i drove back to campus and went my first Alpha event. When I walked into the room, I was greeted my so much love and warmth. I felt so comfortable with them. The conversation flowed easily and I honestly did not want to leave. As i was walking out, my old Rho Gamma (who ended up being an Alpha) came up to me and told that she was proud of me for coming out again and that no matter what happened she would always be my Rho Gam and that any sorority would be proud to call me a sister. It felt honored that she would say that to me and more tears flowed (between both of us).
Since then, I have been going to events for both sororities, and have been having a great time at Alpha AND Beta events. At the last couple events Kristin has been coming up to me and saying hi, so im really not sure what she thinks about me at this point. Today I got two phone calls, one from each chapter telling me that i was invited to their Invite Only Ritual Nights. Both of which will be on Saturday (at different times thank the lord) and Bid Day is Sunday at 9pm.
I am excited for this. Im still worried but am hoping for the best.
Be sure to wish me a lot of luck. I'm going to be needing it! Oh and good luck to all the other girls out there trying to find home!