[justamom]

Well, you are at that stage... Yep, it happens to ALL of us. When you talk to older people they can sum it up by comparing CLASS REUNIONS! At the 10 year, everybody shows up and it's one giant brag session (or fake out session) The women go on diets and the men beef up their resume'. Everyone tries to impress the others with how successful they have become. This is when the class geek suddenly appears handsome or has made that million and the squirrelly girl takes off her glasses and looses 50 lbs to become a bombshell...That movie with Phoebe going to her class reunion is closer to truth than one might think.
At the 15 (If you have them) about half the people show and these are the ones who are still trying to impress or miss the good old days. The others attending are late bloomers and now it's their turn. Funny, but the ones who live in town have the lowest attendance. The 20th is the best because most people have achieved or accepted their position in life. This is usually a good turn out. Everyone is more comfortable with who and where they are. Sure this is simplified but it bears a lot of truth. How does this relate to you?

You are hungry for success. That's good, it will come to you if you want it bad enough and keep focused. We are always happy for our friends' fortune but WE want to be the one who wins the lottery! That's human nature. Your feelings are your catalyst to achieve. If you didn't have that competative nature, you might let yourself become too comfortable where you are. What you're feeling is very natural for your age. It's just a bummer that you have so MANY aquaintances who are in a temporary state of success. (IT is never a given that it will last)

There is no doubt in my mind you will find your own "greatness" and I don't think it's going to take all that long! Just remember a happy life is the only true success.