[Soliloquy]

Well I took the advice of those who posted here, along with the advice of my mom, my gamma chi, and my best friend. I went to my single pref party this morning.

I was upset driving there thinking about how unfair it was. I moped during the our group meeting. I pouted and shuffled my way to the lane. I was sad standing in line; looking longingly at the Alexisonfire and 311 houses. Then suddenly the Copeland doors opened and I heard the soft singing. I felt my heart skip a beat and a smile rise out of nowhere. A smile? I haven't smiled in 12 hours! I was greeted by the girl who rushed me (we'll call her "Marilyn") the first day, the one from my homestate. My name was announced and I was led further into the house. I looked around and noticed how beautiful all the actives looked. My heart swelled with pride. Pride? I smiled, now I'm proud?! What's going on here?!

The president gave a short wonderful speech and we sat for a few minutes with the ladies who pref'd us. "Marilyn" said how excited she was that I chose to come back. She also said that all 6 girls who rushed me the past few days were fighting over who got to pref me today. I felt adored. Marilyn pulled the hometown card and ended up "winning me," as she put it. I was glad she was the one to do it.

The ceremony was gorgeous. I have to admit that I cried. Especially when the girls dedicated this entire recruitment, and a song, to the girl was killed in a car-wreck earlier this year (as I mentioned in my thread).

Marilyn walked me out and started to cry as she said, "I really hope I get to see you at bid-night." She gave me a big hug and I walked out of the door. I couldn't believe that time had passed so quickly. I couldn't believe that not once during their ceremony did I think of 311 or Alexisonfire. I went to sign my pref card and was certain that God knew where I belonged the entire time; and that my dear friend who died, was definitely watching over me.


We will get our bids around 6:00 tonight. I can sincerely say that I hope it says Copeland on it. If it does, you better believe I will be the sprinting to the lane to join my new sisters!